It has been almost 8 months and it has finally arrived. I was just fine and dandy with life and then a week or two ago it just hit. I felt so alone. I still feel alone. And it didn't help that the crazies were being extra crazy. I needed someone to talk to. I needed someone to just sit with me. Lets just say that I really look forward to the days that Dan has off just so I have someone to talk to and be with--who is an adult--that I like. I'm not sure if Dan is as excited as I am, but he acts happy.
I miss the friends that I made in Orem and I know that I need to just make new ones, but that is a difficult one for me. I'm not the outgoing type and I keep to myself. Not the best personality for moving to a new state.
I really miss family. It is really hard to see someone everyday and then not at all (even if it was Jenna! :) I love you!) It is hard to be so far away.
This isn't like an every day all day feeling. It comes and goes. And for the most part I am happy. I have been trying hard to be positive and not think about it, but I have my moments. I think that this has actually made me (along with me wanting to be a better and more patient mom) start to do more spiritual things. I've been on a spiritual plateau for so long that this has started me--I'm hoping--towards a more full and exhilarating journey.
I know that these feelings will fade away, but for the moment, they are here and I am trying my hardest to deal with them positively.
I love and miss all you Utahns!
5 comments:
I miss you so much too! I hope that you can make some friends soon, so that you aren't so lonely! Call anytime! LOVE YOU!!!
been where you are. it does get better but it also is there always. just center your life on your family and the Lord and you will get thru. we miss you alot and love it when we can get together. LOVE YOU TONS!!!!
Ditto! I feel the same way Tiff! I can't wait for the next time we get together!
That's so sweet to hear. Your probably not talking about me and Jan, your faithful visiting teacher's, but i'm going to pretend you are. I miss you too. Your girls were such fun, i miss seeing them grow up.
You may not be super outgoing to stangers at first, but man you are a riot when you get going. I miss working with you!
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